Sad

I just read a blog of a gal that is on the same online mommies network that I am (PhoenixMommies), and she posted the obituary of her little niece that was born stillborn at just a couple days before her due date. This happened to my sister-in-law earlier this year, but she was still two or three months away from her due date. I attended the funeral, and let me tell you, even though the baby was not mine...I ached in my heart for a long time. As a mother, it's just one of the hardest things you can ever think about experiencing...and it's my worst fear that one of my children will pass before me, or that if I were to get pregnant again that something would happen. These are the times when my faith gets shaken a little bit...you start asking all of the "Why?" questions of God...and I know that we will never fully comprehend why some things are allowed to happen, but when things like this happen, it's really hard to just say "Well, God has a plan" you know? The only thing I can take comfort in is that I know that precious little girl, and my sister-in-law's son, are in Heaven with their Heavenly Father and they are experiencing unspeakable joy in His presence and the presence of His angels, and also the loved ones that have gone to Heaven before them. I can only pray that He gives these families peace and comfort during what I think is the most difficult time that can be experienced, from a mother's point of view I guess.

I would like to lighten this up a little bit by telling a funny story about something else that happened today, but it just doesn't feel appropriate, so I'll save it for tomorrow.